Hide and Seek

No more hiding.

I've always been afraid to say I'm sad or lonely so I hide it and say I'm fine. Like putting on a mask. I feel like it's a sign of weakness if you say it straight. but what the heck. I'm no super woman and I am only human. I wish I can say this is my new home,now, just like what I hear everyone else say. How can I say that when my family, friends,comfort zone are on the other side of world? Maybe this is the effect of my cough, meds, inhaler or am I getting sick because of missing home, too much? I don't really care. I have to be home soon or else I'd die of I don't know what...Maybe I should have been a party girl or more social. My roommate who has no work yet, I am amazed by her, seems to have no care in the world..party here and there, I need 1%, 2% or 5% of that. On a lighter note, Congrats to Ateneo, 4 Peat!

Home sick

I am really home. sick. in my 2nd country. Almost a year now, and I'm missing home and family so bad. Maybe I need to get out more and be friendly, meet new friends. but the thing is, I don't get out that much, I'm also not a friendly person. I am good but I think I'm not social. Maybe it's time to change that. but I'll have to see my family first. I have to see my first home again before I can say I am home.